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Name: Kathia
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Birthday: 11/7/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: where to start I am very much an old soul...I enjoy the simple things, details. is the sky orange, pink or purple today? Flowers, stopping and smelling the roses. Creating, Being, Seeing.
coffee ice-cream and dark chocolate
Believing in something that is ETernal; creating memories and loving LIVING now
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  BrianPgirl
MSN: Newbiepixiek@
Member Since:
2/16/2004
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| Wow, I can't believe a whole 'nother year has just gone by. A whole year of school and half of the 365 day year (2007)! is already gone! Full of fun patches, rough patches, and smooth patches. And we've all learned a lot! (I hope) So, I can't believe I'm 22 (!yikes!) Its weird, it's already been 4 years since I've graduated highschool and it feels like it was just the end of freshmen year of college, just a little wiser and a little smarter.
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| Alright,
so I am stressing, yeah I know I shouldn't but its seems inevitable. And when the caffeine starts wearing off...you start feeling all the hours of lost sleep. but at least these were mainly productive hours, not too much wasting time on computer/miscellaneous things/like cleaning/blah blah blah...anyway.
I have a long to do list, as do we all....but I feel like some of those things have been on there for quite some time. Like I need to get my wisdom teeth taken out and stuff like that that I don't get to do so now my teeth are getting really crooked on the bottom. Luckily you don't see them much.
well I have to write a paper on a superb topic, actually just being sarcastic its the most boringest piece of crap ever. Yeah I know that word doesn't exist in the dictionary that doesn't matter.
well I got a new job, I'm supposed to be starting next week so I can start saving for a car!!! I need a car so bad!!! I sure hope things go well and I save well! because man oh man it sucks to depend on people for a ride and stuff...ugh.
The car I did have my sis wrecked it so yeah that was that.
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| I feel: stupid, unwise, dumb, retarded...so on so forth. I guess Im beating myself up because of my stupid decisions. I dropped all my classes this quarter march 1, not one class, not two, but ALL. Yeah, stupid? Yes, can I fix it? Yes, by taking these classes all over again. hmmm, I guess I'll just have to correct this bad decision now, because there's no better time. Plus I only have 4 quarters left, after Spring I'll have three.
I'm in 25th mile in the marathon. (figuretively speaking) One more big mile to go, with plenty of hills and terrain to make me wanna puke, but i gotta do it, and by the Grace of God I will. It seems impossible but thats why I say it by his grace, because it seems so undo-able to me, that having faith He'll be running right there beside me will make it all the more triumphant when we cross the finish line. Except no one will see Him just me. and I will point to him, when they say how'd you do it?
Yeah, I am humbled by all of this, because I realized how much of an idiot I really am and how much I need to depend on the grace that so lovingly abounds in him, the grace that he gives.
so as a self proclaimed idiot, I assume that when I do finally cross the finish line and graduate, He's going to not only be there with me, but cheering me on as well!!!! Yes, I'm so thrilled and determined to fixate upon this goal, to win that prize and in my weakness and stupidity become covered by grace to allow be to cross in the most gracious manner full of humility and gratitude.
I am humbled at the thought of having Christ himself, run this race with me. I feel like such a baby, so weak and fragile yet he lifts me up and carries me when I'm down. What a wonderful thing called love. Truly my eyes are beginning to re-open and see the light that ever so brightly shines through the clouds in the sky.
those are the eyes of my Father staring back at me. Even at night he never leaves me, for in the moon I can catch His glare, his glorious glare. Ever bright and beautiful. How gracious he is to me.
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| When do we realize that we have more to look forward to than the mundane things of this time?
Don't get me wrong I love hanging out and having a little fun, but seriously sometimes the most simple things are the best. And guess what? I've begun to change my thinking back to basics.....no more worrying too much about life and it's little details it's all about the big picture.
and hey I guess you could say I'm living the dream because creativity breeds in me like a basket full of spider eggs ready to hatch and I'm just listening to them cracking...haha. they don't crack.
but anyway enough of my jibberish it probably doesn't make that much sense anyway.
I just know that I'm grateful for LIFE. and CHRIST is amazing. His grace is ever astounding.
I'm happy:)
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